So, after the cancelled cycle I went onto birth control for 7 LONG weeks. I met with my RE again and she was well aware this IUI would be our last. She decided to repeat all my lab work, my HSG, and she was going to ramp up my protocol and add some supplements to my regimen.
We scheduled my HSG for October and then the IUI would follow after my next period. My protocol included letrozole, GonalF and Menopur and then progesterone and estrogen after the IUI. Even with all the extra meds, I only had 1 follicle measuring 16mm. On the day of the IUI, I had zero expectations. I was alone for this one. It was performed by a nurse practitioner who had been working in fertility for 30 years! She was so kind and gentle. Weird what details you remember. I didn’t go in with a false sense of hope or even negativity. I was just learning to find peace in the entire journey.
On November 15, 2018 I got my last BFN.
Zero expectation meant minimal disappointment. I spent the evening with my best friend having cocktails and just enjoying each other’s company. It was just what my soul needed.
Our journey to have a baby was over but our journey to living a child free not by choice life was just about to begin.
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