October 2019
A friend and fellow nurse was diagnosed with PCOS and got pregnant after her first round of letrozole. As much as that would make my eyes roll from random people…I was THRILLED for her and her husband. She had (and still is) someone that supported me through my infertility journey. She always counted cycle days with me and kept up with med changes and follicle scans. She always checked in on me on test day. And helped me navigate all the negatives. So, I knew what her medicated cycle was going to look like and when HER test date was. I got to be one of the first to know about her pregnancy. And the only one at work for what felt like FOREVER. It was such a hard secret to keep! But the entire time, I was so ready for the jealousy and bitterness to set in and it never did. It was weird lol.
When she announced she was going to do a gender reveal, I was pumped. We have a giant ferris wheel in Orlando called The Wheel and you can have them light the wheel the pink for a girl and blue for a boy and that’s what she decided to do! It was such a neat idea. So, Chad and I took the night off work and spent some time with my friend and her family before the reveal. I was still waiting for those negative feelings to kick in. When the wheel lit up blue and I saw how excited she was, my heart was bursting for her and her husband! We wandered over to give hug, congratulate her and say goodbye.
Since I had shared with my best friends what we were doing that night, 2 of them texted to check in on how I was doing (get you friends like these, the ones that check in often). I told them I was honestly ok. But I knew that night was big deal for me. And it was another step in healing. I put my feelings into this IG post. Now, I know I might not always be ok in a similar situation but I know I can get there.
PS Baby Maverick was born in January 2020!!
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